Look at what I found in my wallet this morning...



Susah hati bila exam dah dekat tapi tak habis belajar lagi

Sakit hati bila tengok orang lain terseksa dan sengsara

Sejuk hati bila tengok langit biru kat luar tingkap

Senang hati bila kawan tegur kat YM :)

Sampai hati tak ajak aku pergi kenduri kau (tetibe je)

Banyak betul ek peranan hati dalam hidup ni? Jadi, jaga elok-elok...simpan dalam wallet. Hohoho (ok, takde kaitan)


Yeap, hati...

I just have to do this at every university that I've been to

Actually, Belfast was the 1st place that we planned to go to (even before Manchester) and it's also the 1st time for us to board a plane from the UK since arriving on the 14th of September. Who's "us"? Takkan tak tau...haish~

The J's at Belfast :)

Hazwan, Fana and Fifah at the kitchen (tu pon nak posing :P)

We went out for a drink (hot chocolate ye) afterwards. Surprisingly, hot chocolate is now one of my favourite drinks since the Belfast trip. Of course, we went to Junction One the next day to shop but there are no photos since it was too cold for me to hold my camera.

We even joined the lecture on Monday morning and I didn't fell asleep, hehe

And we had sandwich for lunch which is said to be better than Subway, it's good really (I had seafood la). As you can see, Charles and Hazwan looked excited.

Me, Fana and Fifah took a picture outside the sandwich shop

That night, we went out to the city

I have to say, the city's huge and pretty too

It just so happens that one of the things that I enjoy doing is running.

Have you ever run so fast or sprinted so hard...that when you stopped, you realized that you have tears in your eyes?

And I'm not talking about dust in my eyes.

On the 6th of December, 5 KMBians set off to Leicester which is the nearest place from Nottingham where we can find other KMBians. It's funny really how we thought of going there. Me, Aida and Arina were in HDT (Human Development and Tissue Differentiation aka Histology) class when suddenly the idea of eating at Nando's popped into our minds. Apparently, the other 3 girls couldn't make it so we went to Leicester anyway :P

At first, I have to say, I just don't know what we'll be doing in Leicester. We only thought about Nando's and Subway. Hahahaha.

Right after buying Subway sandwiches, we headed towards Victoria Park. It truly is a nice park and it's windy on that day. Next, we went for a tour around the city.

As we were strolling around the city, I suddenly had the impression that Leicester is a bigger city than Nottingham. But I thought "Nahh, it couldn't be" until Iman said the same thing.

with the 5 Leicester girls

We went to Nando's finally! The place that I actually put as one of the criteria for my future university although I eventually found out that there are no halal Nando's in Nottingham O_o

To end a fantastic day, we went to this giant slide and had a go on it (well, several actually). When I went down the slide, the feeling was so great and it was a blast! Really made my day.

A gift from my parents :)

Why hello there ZR1! I'm looking forward to spend time with you for the next few years. Furthermore, you're in blue!

Let's see what's the first picture taken by this camera...

Hahaha, the old Cybershot DSC-T20. Thanks for all the 6598 photos you've taken! There  are so many memories that I have with you...always been a lovely companion. I may use you in the future, you know.

Speaking of cameras, this really reminds me of a post which I've read once upon a time from the blog of Ammar Roslizar entitled "Kamera":

March 26, 2008 at 1.34 pm

Kamera

"Oit! Kamera, Kamera..." kata Sophia kepada Nadia.

"Control..control.." kata Nadia sambil memuncungkan sedikit bibir untuk menampakkan wajah yang lebih manja kepada kamera.

"Hanya jika kita yakin pada kewujudan Allah..."

Firstly, we can see his technique in writing. He would put sentences in inverted commas at the end of each of his post and I just realized he likes 3 dots too ^_~

Okay, back to the deleted post (or blog if I may say so :P). Honestly, when I read it for the first time, I didn't really get the message until the author himself commented on it.

"Kalaulah keyakinan pada kewujudan Allah itu tinggi, pasti kita akan control dan melakukan amal-amal yang hanya diredhai Allah sahaja..kerana kita yakin bahawa amal-amal itu akan diperlihatkan semula di akhirat..samalah seperti gambar kita yang akan dilihat oleh orang ramai..=)"

So smile people, cause you know you're being watched...;)

p/s: i miss reading your blog...

On Saturday, 28th of November, I went into hiding :D

It's just impossible for me to be hiding and stay offline when I'm home. Thus, it's obvious that I went out somewhere...and I certainly did.

Azim took us (my housemates & I) to Oxford!


Well, the University of Oxford is a city university so, it's somehow similar to Manchester. Nonetheless, this is Oxford! The buildings everywhere are strikingly picturesque and photographic if I may say so.

To Aqeem, if you're reading this; if I knew you really wanted to go to Oxford, I would've called you :)

Yeah, that's what I did on that day. Go ahead and travel, you'll be amazed!

Nahh, not another short story, just an intro for my post on the visit in the city of Manchester...;)

The host

Remember this photo? Bad memory? Click here.

Well, it's not exactly a Ferris wheel. The view from above the Wheel of Manchester.

And even though it rains very often, there's still sunlight in the end...


Of course, we went for a tour at Old Trafford

We played Foosball

Cardiff & Nottingham

When I heard the tour guide said the jerseys correspond to the seats where the players actually sit, I did this.

At the gift shop

We are from Nottingham!

Now I know how it feels like to leave Nottingham for a long time (padahal 3 hari je). I feel so great to come back home on Sunday.

In Manchester, I made new friends, met old ones, recurring characters too :), ate a lot, took some pictures, bought some souvenirs and I learned more.

What would you do?

One thing's for sure...it won't always rain on me...

Well, that's what I said during the dinner for Malaysian Medics. We were given coins and we had to introduce ourselves by saying about something that happened to us on the year of minting.

Meeting new people can be fun and I'm sure that there'll be many more introductions that I'd face in life. Now, we move on to the part where I recall a conversation that I have on YM once upon a time...

???: Nothing remains lama-lama

Wafi: True, but that doesn't mean you have to let it go

And then he replied with some lines from a Westlife song, "If I let you go... I would never know..."

You were not even responding to my message.

Saying hellos to new people can be quite freaky cause you're letting in new people into your life and it's as if you're leaving those that you have in the past. But hey, nobody said it was easy and it doesn't really mean you're letting go.

Okay, enough about that. Let's say hello to my Medicine course in the University of Nottingham.

Basically, it's systems-based integrated which is so cool! Cause it's very structured and it consists of:

A. Lectures:

Some lectures require the usage of keypads (like the ones used during the Ask the Audience lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire?) Frankly, whenever the keypads are used, it's impossible for me to fall asleep, haha. And I had to tell Zuhri twice about the keypads before he understands what I was trying to say which makes me wonder whether he really has a good memory or he wasn't actually paying attention to my messages. Thankfully, Syuk got excited as soon as I talked about the keypads and hopes that he could join one of the lectures. I did tell Muz and Hanis Hanafi too but they're in the UK so, their unis also use keypads. No biggie there.

B. Seminars:

This is fun cause we work in small groups and this is where we get to know more about our colleagues.

C. Visits:

I like my GP visit! Cause it's in the city and both of my GPs are very nice :D Just can't wait to go there again and hospital visits are coming up soon.

D. Practicals:

This is where we would be kissing manikins, screaming for help, lying on the floor or wrapping each other in bandages. One of the practicals would be the Clinical Communication Skills which I really enjoy cause it involves acting or role-playing. There was one time where we were recorded on DVD and I felt a bit awkward watching myself in that video. I think I need to take extra classes for acting :P

Well, there are lots more but I think I should stop there. Essentially, there are 4 themes that make up the medical course:





That's it for now and remember, saying hello to new people doesn't really mean bye bye to others. But I'd say bye anyway cause it's more heartbraking, hehe.

Till then, salam...

Funny how the date of my 1st day of class is featured in this song.

Well, living in an area where you're the minority isn't exactly how I imagined. Talk about cross-cultural differences!

"Do you drink?"

"Are you going to the Medics Cocktail Party?"

"You can just call me if you want to organize great parties."

Yeah, this is life!

Oh, and this is my 1st time raya overseas...cool giler!


If I can dance my way through KMB, might as well be dancing again through the University of Nottingham. I just need to keep on going, the rhythm & steps maybe different but I'm still me.

Speaking of steps, this is how waterproof shoes look like:


And my dreams...it's been going on for days. Imagine that it's not even been a month and you've started missing other people. Haish ~

Back then in Semester 1 at KMB, when the TGB students would usually play tennis in the evening (assabiyah sekali), I would often see planes flying across the clear blue sky. I kept telling those that were in the court that the planes somehow gave me some kind of motivation cause one day, I'll be in one of those - leaving this country to pursue my dreams.

And now, the time finally comes, the time for me to leave.

Seriously...aku tak sangka aku fly harini.

I never really know how it feels like to leave Malaysia for a very long time. Well, I did send off my friends at KLIA but you never really know until you are in their shoes.

Oh, and thank you to for sending me off...;)

Thank you too for the text messages, calls, gifts, messages via fb, fs or ym.

Kita jumpa lagi ye. Kalau tak, kita jumpa kat syurga, insyaAllah...

It was the last Saturday. Sleeping peacefully in his room was A, who still didn't realize it's already Subuh. Suddenly, A woke up. Apparently, someone had grasp A's foot causing him to wake up surprisingly. A was moody as most people would when they were awaken from sleep unanticipatedly and he saw a figure at the end of his bed but he didn't know who it was cause everything's dark. Then, the figure illuminated his phone and shone the light onto his face...A saw who it was and smiled instantaneously :)


Well pak cik, I guess it didn't happen as the dream but at least, this part is =)

Yeah, look what I found;



And you certainly did more than that! Thanks a lot! You were always there for me & it sucks...cause I'm not always there for you. I'm not sure if you can remember this one but I know you have a good memory too...


I was grinning at that time as it was funny cause the statement wasn't valid since you're already my bestfriend :)

Guess what? You passed with flying colours! :D

I wish you all the best & I hope you're okay...always have, always will...

Somehow, I do believe that everything would be just fine :)

I mean, well...

I wasn't able to send you off at KLIA,
I haven't taken a picture with you yet,
I could not go to your house before I fly,
I didn't go to your house for your kenduri,
I couldn't go to your house so you can treat me,
I didn't get to meet all my teachers during graduation,
I still don't know how to cook, so I couldn't teach you how to prepare the tempoyak dish;

You didn't call me like you used to,
You went home early during graduation,
You still haven't replied to my post though the other 4 had,
You haven't seen me for a very long time and the last time was in Penang,
You and I are connected through Facebook and the last time I saw you was 2 years ago,
You didn't come to my house for raya or makan nasi after saying about them several times,
You won't be able to go to the same university as I am despite the fact you acquired the minimum requirement;

We didn't eat kambing together,
We didn't even get to see each other during graduation,
We couldn't break fast together this year before each of us fly,
We didn't carry out the things that we had planned when IB was over,
We won't be going to the same university (haish...I still haven't gotten over this issue),
We couldn't carry out all the plans that you've thought about while I'm in Shah Alam (kat London la ye),
We still don't manage to take a picture together in any of our graduations (accidental & blurry ones don't count);

Tabahkan hati wahai sahabatku...;)

I'm sure Allah has something cool in stored for us.

"Just have a little faith"
Michael Scofield & Lincoln Burrows
Prison Break

Sometimes, you just have to believe.

Lagipun, aku jumpa benda ni bila jalan-jalan dengan kawan aku semalam. Which one? Kawan adlan :)


I'm sure that the next 5 years will be one heck of a ride too.

New drama, new twists, new setting, new challenges, new characters but I'm looking forward to the recurring ones.

Dear Nottingham, bring it on!

Let's do it...

Did you say it?
I love you.
I don't ever want to live without you.
You changed my life.
Did you say it?

After writing the post with the highest number of comments, hitohira no hanabira and after having numerous conversations with my friends, I began to realize that I do have a good memory.

I cannot remember everything though, but some things can really just stick in my mind.

Plus, I do have a way to remember my friends - by developing their traits, habits, hobbies, personalities and even using their catch phrases. And I like it, cause everytime I do it, I remember my friends...I remember the times we had together...I remember you...

Just take your time for a while and ponder...do you remember a certain friend of yours when you do certain things? I know I do.

I'm amazed at how some people that I meet in my life, ordinary people which I just happen to bump into one day; then suddenly, they become the people who have great influence over you, who are somehow responsible in who you are today.

I think it's because of the fact that I need role models, several friends which I look up to in order to become better and I truly admire them.

I guess that's why I practice Rasulullah's sunnahs too...

"Mak nak bawak Wafi tengok Kaabah before fly pergi UK"

And so my mum, my opah and I went for Umrah.

Dan atas saranan aisyah ismail dan ammar roslizar (sikit je), I present to you for the first time on my blog, a diary style post!

I also put the date on top of each entry because this post is quite long, so you might want to rest or get some snacks between the diary entries...

I dedicate this post especially to you, dear readers.

Day 1, 19th June 09

This day revolved around my stroll around KLIA while waiting for the flight - from Kuala Lumpur to Jeddah through Abu Dhabi via Etihad Airways.

And so I received a lot of sms from my friends on that day. You might not know this but I was indeed happy when I got those text messages. And Nazam did call earlier on that day and Aizat Zahari did too a few days ago when they found out that I'll be going for umrah. I'm not sure why but I was surely elated to get those phone calls =)

At KLIA, I actually wandered around the place and I began to envisage the day that I will fly - Where will I be hovering around? Who will attend? Who will fly first? Am I going to be able to send my friends while I'm around in Malaysia?

Then, I decided to stop thinking about it and began to focus on this momentous trip.

Then, the time finally comes for me to check in and Irfan (my brother, the youngest) actually said "Eh, mane abang wafi nak pergi?". Haha, he didn't realize that I'll be going too. He's so jealous to know that I'll be travelling with my mum.

And before I board the plane and switch off my phone, I did send my last sms in Malaysia to the one person. Yeah, there're only a few more months before we're separated by the sea and mountains. (yeke mountains? entahla...) Different countries pulak tu! =(

The seating positions for me and my mum were quite afar. So, I ended up seating next to a Pakistani. And we did have a good conversation.


Day 2, 20th June 09

And then, we arrived at Jeddah airport at dawn and I got goosebumps.

We boarded the bus and our destination was Madinah. The journey took about 6 hours. Finally, we reached Madinah al-Munawwarah and checked in at the hotel.

It was Zuhur (around 12 pm) and for the first time, I'm going to Masjid Nabawi. I know that Masjid Nabawi has a green dome but I couldn't find it when I arrived.

The plan was to go to Raudhah first and then, go to Makam Rasulullah after prayer. And so, I didn't really know where Raudhah was but I know the carpet is light green in colour, the rest of the carpet in Masjid Nabawi is dark red. It's at the front and on the left side of Masjid Nabawi if you entered from the back (that is if you're facing the kiblat).

And then, I saw lots of people going to a certain place in a line and I decided to join them. I was in the line, walking slowly until I realized that Makam Rasulullah was actually on my left...exactly on my left. I was startled because I didn't know that this was the place and immediately delivered my salam because there were many people behind me. Right after that, I delivered my salam to Abu Bakar As-Siddiq and Umar Al-Khattab and then I found out I was out of Masjid Nabawi.

Azan pun berkumandang dan saya berazam untuk pergi ke Makam Rasulullah lagi...

Right after Zuhur, I got up and followed the crowd to go to Makam Rasulullah. And eventually, I found myself in a spot where there were a lot of people and I looked at the carpet - Light green! Raudhah!

Masya Allah! Allah benar-benar nak beri peluang kepada saya. Memang ramai orang di situ dan alhamdulillah, saya dapat menunaikan solat hajat di Raudhah. Entah mengapa, tiba-tiba menjadi sebak ketika berada di situ - mungkin terharu dan mungkin terlalu gembira.

After that, I decided to go to Makam Rasulullah once again. As I approach Makam Rasulullah, my heart was beating so fast, it was like riding a roller coaster (nope, definitely at a higher intensity). And this time, I managed to deliver my salam in a calmer way but I just can't deny that I was engulfed by my guilt yet I was so thankful that I was here.

Day 3, 21st June 09

This is the day where we went for ziarah around Madinah.



Well, today was free from activity and so, I decided to take some pictures of the interior of Masjid Nabawi.




Actually, they don't really allow cameras to be brought into Masjid Nabawi, so you have to be sneaky.



Day 5, 23rd June 09

Akhirnya, dapat juga saya tangkap gambar kubah hijau yang sering dilihat dalam gambar setelah payung-payung automatik itu tutup selepas waktu Subuh (Subuh is around 3.30 - 4.00 am).


If you look at the picture closely, there are green circles on the wall with names written on them. The first one that I saw was Abu Hurairah (and the thought of lots of cats appeared on my mind). And then I saw Abu Bakar, Uthman and Ali. There were more of course.


Sadly, it was the last day in Madinah and I do have to say, "Rasa macam sekejap je, kan best kalau ada kawan yang duduk kat Madinah...boleh duduk lama-lama sikit, dapat ziarah lagi banyak tempat."

And after Zuhur, I put on my kain ihram and my mum kept taking pictures of me.


Baru hari tu mengalami monolog dalaman, "Siapa la nak tangkap gambar Wafi kat sini?"...

Because usually (more like everytime), my camera would be in another person's hand and by the end of the day, there would be lots of pictures in it. Now, I know that my mum likes to take pictures of me.

1st, Niat di miqat.
Dan kami pun berangkat ke tempat miqat iaitu di Bir Ali (Dzulhulaifah)

And we began our journey in our air-conditioned bus from Madinah to Makkah.

Dan bacaan talbiah mula dilaungkan. Bacaan talbiah yang sering saya dengar di televisyen sewaktu musim haji...yang saya nyanyikan sewaktu kecil tetapi tak tahu maksudnya.


We arrived in Makkah and it was already dark outside so, I couldn't see much. Around 9 pm, we checked in at the hotel. After dinner, it was my first time to go to Masjidil Haram.

There are 95 gates (doors) of Masjidil Haram and we entered through Gate No. 1.

And I saw Kaabah for the first time!

I had goosebumps and not to forget, adrenaline rush. (Goosebumps and adrenaline rushes occur so frequently during this whole trip in Makkah and Madinah)

Simply undefined...

2nd, Tawaf

Dan tawaf buat pertama kali memang sangat bermakna.

I kept reminding myself that I'm doing it for Allah and I felt so blessed.

Disunatkan bagi lelaki untuk tawaf dalam keadaan idtiba' (ittiba'). Ustaz juga menceritakan Rasulullah dahulu melakukan tawaf dalam keadaan berikut untuk menunjukkan kekuatan umat Islam.

3rd, Sa'ie

I just learned that Safa and Marwah is very close to Kaabah and of course, the story of Siti Hajar flashed inside my mind...

4th, Tahallul

And this is a part of the doa,


And I shaved my head (well, the barber actually). It's been a while since I looked like this, the last time was in Standard 6. My mum said, "Macam Irfan!"...

5th, Tertib

I exploded with joy. Umrah telah selesai...

(Rasa macam nak sms je orang-orang kat Malaysia)

Day 6, 24th June 09

It was a whole new day and I had a stroll around the streets of Makkah with my mum. I really did enjoy it because the last time I had a walk with my mum was during the Liverpool interview. I was smiling the whole time...

We had doughnuts at the House of Donuts (the stores are everywhere, there's one on each floor in this one supermarket). It's sort of like Big Apple in Malaysia but they only have 3 types of donuts.

And I love the pigeons that were flying all around us...

Then, after Asar (around 3.30 pm), it was time for a visit to Ladang Unta, Hudaibiyah and Muzium (I'm not sure about the name).


Dan kisah tentang Perjanjian Hudaibiyah diceritakan oleh Ustaz.

And now we move on to the museum.





My mum called it "Lawatan muzium terpantas di dunia" because we had to move quickly during the tour as the museum authorities kept asking us to move on to the next section.

Day 7, 25th June 09

It's a great new day and my mum asked me to have a walk with her again =)

But before that, we went to Hijir Ismail for solat sunat.

Diriwayatkan oleh Abu Daud dari Aisyah r.a. yang bermaksud, Dari Aisyah r.a. katanya;


Hijir Ismail is a part of Kaabah.

Right after that, we went to Multazam...

Rasulullah SAW bersabda,


And I keep on praying while I have the chance. And my eyes began to water...


Day 8, 26th June 09

It was Friday.

Memang ramai orang datang ke Masjidil Haram. You have to arrive really early for Solat Jumaat.

Later that evening, my mum told me a really good news. Alhamdulillah. Doa dimakbulkan Allah. Sebenarnya, memang banyak doa yang dimakbulkan Allah sepanjang masa di sini. Yelah, lebih-lebih lagi di tanah suci ni.

Lepas solat Maghrib (Maghrib is around 7 pm), beberapa Pak Arab datang dan duduk dekat dengan saya. Rupa-rupanya, mereka ada temu janji dengan Pak Arab yang duduk tepi saya.

So, I decided to get up and let them have some space when one of them asked me to join them. So, I just sit with them and they took out some bread and tea. Haha, so sweet. They're having a small picnic. I was thinking of telling my mum later, "Mak, tadi Wafi minum teh dengan orang Arab" but I decided not to because it seemed childish.

Well, sitting with them made me realized that I need to master Arabic because they didn't use English at all. And they were conversing in Arabic and I was like smiling all the time which I finally found out that 2 of them are from Bangladesh and one of them was from Afghanistan. Haha, ingatkan Arab. But still, they were very nice and the tea in Makkah and Madinah...delish!

Oh, one thing that I realized - the streets of Makkah are often occupied by beggars and some of them are handicapped. Whenever I see them, the image of Zaita from Lorong Midaq (Midaq Alley) appeared on my mind.

Harap-harap takdela orang macam tu...

Day 9, 27th June 09

This is the day where we went for a visit around Makkah. Most of the time, we had a bus tour meaning we didn't get out from the bus.

But we're allowed to go out at Arafah.


Struktur berwarna putih itu menandakan pertemuan Adam dan Hawa setelah mereka diturunkan dari syurga. Ustaz juga cakap yang orang selalu datang ke sini untuk berdoa agar dapat menemui jodoh.

And my mum kept reminding me to pray for that too. "Yelah mak, dah selalu doakan pon" (inner monologue). I wondered how she would react if I told her that at least 5 of my friends (lelaki la) are already engaged. Hurm...

When we got back to the hotel, we had a stroll again. Best betol...

Day 10, 28th June 09

Tomorrow's the last day...oh, sedihnya...

And I decided to take pictures around Makkah. There were so many pigeons too. I actually walk through the pigeons that were on the ground and let them fly all around me...you know, like when you see a host from a travelling TV programme who's trying to promote a place. It felt great actually.





Honestly, during my trip, I actually miss my friends.

"Kan best kalau dapat pergi dengan kawan"

Tapi Kaabah dah dekat depan mata...apa lagi?

So, I keep on praying...and praying...

I was also alone most of the time.

Yelah, bila dalam masjid, tempat solat lain dengan mak dan opah.

But thankfully, I know that Allah is always with me. And when I remember that, the feeling was so great - really inspired me and gave me the strength to carry on.

And for dinner, we had Mandi (an Arabic delicacy)...

Day 11, 29th June 09

Last day in Makkah =(

That morning, I prayed that I would have another chance to go to Multazam. And alhamdulillah, Allah gave me that chance again.

Actually, whenever I looked at Kaabah, the feeling is just surreal. Quite hard to describe the feeling but indeed, I'm grateful ;)

And most of the time, I would just stare at Kaabah and thank Allah for everything...

At about 10 am, it's time to board the bus and leave Makkah.

I flew home via the same connecting flight. I reached Abu Dhabi at about 9 pm and during the next 6 hours, I went for a walk with my mum around the airport and also surfed once I found out they have free internet - surfing through one blog after another. So, if you have Feedjit Live Traffic Feed and see the word Dubai, that's me!

The next flight was at about 3 am and it's a 7 hour flight O.o

Day 12, 30th June 09

It was about 2 pm and I was back in Malaysia.

And guess what? I bumped into Syakirah Zabidi (BWP from MRSM TGB). We were actually in the same plane and I only found out about this when we're at KLIA. I just messaged her the other day telling that I'm off for umrah. Then, I met Hafiz Yusof at the luggage section. It's been a while... :(


Well, that's it. It sure took me a long time to write this blog post.

Tiba-tiba rasa rindu pula...macam nak pergi balik.


Insya-Allah, Adlan Wafi...one day...

Many days ago, on the frontpage of a local newspaper, Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Razak was shown trying his hand at grinding rice at the national level Gawai Dayak celebrations in Kuching. Apart from that, Little Izzat gets Chelsea invite and Ahmadinejad wins a troubled polls. These are, however, unrelated to this post.

"Flowers in full bloom do not last forever"
words of the Principal from the hit Japanese drama,
Hanazakari no Kimitachi e (Hana Kimi) / 花ざかりの君たちへ

Here are some of the conversations or dialogues from KMB. It's interesting, really. Try finding yours if you can.

(It doesn't really mean these people always say these stuff, it's basically everything that I ever heard of either frequently or occasionally or even once)

Teachers

Malay
Cikgu Hasni: "Ingat selalu, sastera tak rigid"

English
Ms Oja: "I would say someone like Adlan is witty"
Me: "What's witty?" (while looking at Nina trying to get an answer)

Ms Nora: "Adlan, if you talk fast like that, no one's able to catch what you're trying to say" (after my Eng Oral)

Mathematics
Ms Kamariah: "You looked familiar...You reminded me of someone..." (during the first semester and the first consultation)

Economics
Ms Diana: "Walaupun jawapan Adlan tu merepek, tapi sebenarnya betul" (during the topic of Unemployment)

Ms Azizah: "You always say government should do this, government should do that, actually, YOU should do this and that" (her response towards our essay answers)

Biology
Ms Iliani: "Adlan, what is the meaning of degenerate? (on the topic of Proteins Semester 2)"
Me: "Urm, (while thinking for a dictionary term) it means destroyed, terhapus..."
Ms Iliani: "That's why you cannot get 7 for Bio."

Chemistry
Sir Fadzlanor: "Adlan, awak suka Chem tak?"

Ms Fauziah: "Let's party! Party! Party!" (after Chem Paper 3)

Pengajian Agama Islam
Ustaz Shiham: "Wi-fi, awak duduk mana?"
Me: "Erm...Seksyen 6, Shah Alam"
Ustaz Shiham: "Oh, kat situ ada jual pisang goreng sedap"

Theory of Knowledge
Ms Tik: "Adlan, what would you do if a woman comes to you for abortion?"
Me: "I'll show her the video tape (the video which shows the cruelty of abortion)"
Ms Tik: "That's a safe answer"

Me: "Have you made up your mind?"
Ms Yatie: "Yup.. You got what you wished for..(on her response of my group's TOK presentation marks)"

Extended Essay
Ms Rosmaria: "Yuhuu....plans never really work. Spontaneous action normally does, but too risky"

MPP
Ms Badriyah: "I always remember you everytime I make that sandwich filling"

M07J

Akmal: "Kau kenal tak siapa fernando torres?"

Che: "Kalau kau tak dapat interview ni, aku bog*l"

Syahir: "Aku tak nak ikut kau tadi sebab takut kau tinggalkan aku sorang2"

Nina: "Adlan, are you okay?"

Farhana: "Adlan, jangan pergi Nottingham tau"

Afifah: "Teruskan your happy-go-lucky nature"

Huda: "...isk..kena telur (on her birthday with Rima)"

Cto Topek Farid: "Relax Adlan, I know you can do it... (he actually wrote it on a piece of paper and I put it on my locker till the very end of IB)"

Azizi: "...." (dia tak cakap apa2 sebab dia tak reply message...just kidding) "Thank u lan. Kira aku selalu message kau la kan"

Adib: "Adlan, jom main bola petang ni"

Rima: "Doakan dapat ketenangan ek"

Ina (Amal O): "Sinisme gila (dengan sebutan baku ~ on her response towards my sarcasm)"

Akiey: "Siapa nak join Love Symphony, tulis nama kat sini ye"

Ain: "Tahniah jadi classmate 1st yang bagi duit raya."

Mun: "I know you can do it!"

Al-Hafiz: "Kitorang ada belikan roti untuk kau (on the day when I didn't go to Alamanda with my classmates because I have UKCAT and I found out there was also someone from the other class who didn't go =); roti je? beli la ayam ke...hehe)"

Hazwan: "Sushi, buat apa petang tadi?"

Arif: "Kau cerita pasal aku ye kat blog kau?"

Munee: "Haiwan apa yang paling besar kat dunia ni?"

Yati: "Adlan makan banyak"

Zizie (Hazirah): "Umur makin naik, tujuan hidup jangan lari dari landasan Allah ye"

Amal M (classmate dari MRSM TGB): "Amal tengah ada kat Dewan ni, dengar briefing (on the very first day of my life at Kolej MARA Banting ~ I found out that she's also in KMB on that very day)"

And the rest of the KMBians whose names will not be written...hehehe...

"Dah tdo?"

"What? A nice hot girl. You're the best wafer in town."

"kur kur"

"I don't usually treat people unless they've done something to me"

"If rindu aku, contact no ni keh ^_~"

"Nice video. Buat panjang lagi."

"Adlan, camne nak deposit cek?"

"Ambikkan sekali beg MABECS tu"
(ketika menyeludup beg MABECS dengan BANYAK sekali waktu exhibition kat KMB)

"Maybe you're not that interesting to be talked about"

"Aku tak tangkap gambar dengan Adlan lagi"

"Adlan, thanks for the wristlets!"

"Bergonjeng"

"I tengok video Sehati Serumpun berjuta kali dah. Tu je nak cakap"

"IB Coordinator pergi Alamanda"
(on her response of why the PIN is still not available for Econs students)

"Malam ni aku pakai seluar licin sikit la"
(But Kumpulan 3 still managed to be Johan Peringkat Negara during BTN ~ Jalur Gemilang)

"The video was awesome!"

"Nak ambik specialist apa?"
(it was her favourite question during BTN)

"Boleh tak aku pinjam raket squash untuk weekends ni?"

"Apa makanan kegemaran?"
(another favourite question)

"Kenapa tunggu? Sweetnye..."
(At KTM Subang)

"Zas!"
(from the word disaster)

"Adlan, kau siap semua tak Maths tadi?"
(right after Math Paper 2 - tak dapat la... O_o)

"Hye Adlan!"

"Aku kalau picit mata aku, kurang sikit rabun die"

"Aku nak magnet warna hijau"
(dia tinggal kat Melaka)

"Lepas ni tak leh la jumpa kau lagi"
(padahal rumah dia kat Subang)

"U belong to a piece of my memory"

"Thanks for being my friend. You really inspired me"

"Asal nak main tennis tiba-tiba?"
(during the study leave before IB Exam 2009)

"Baju kau semua Up2"

"Koyak dowh.."

"Aku dah lama tak nampak kau"

"ok now..leaves us with econ, malay, english..lyke pffftt..! confirm2 la ko dpt 7"
(during my downfall in the 2nd semester exam, ceh...)

"It was STILL a surprise to me coz I didn't think you know my birthday"
(and she shared the chocolates with her classmates & teachers =) )

"Semoga ISAC akan lebih mantap pada masa akan datang"

"Risiko!" or "RISK!"

"Adlan, how's your EE?"
(He got an A)

"Kau pernah dengar kan yang manusia pun ada rythmical behaviour"

"Tadi accident ye?"
(on the day when I had my first accident - the bus which carry the HTAR students hit a lorry; it was minor of course...this guy actually called me when I got back to KMB)

"Adlan balik tak minggu ni?"

"Assabiyah la ko"

"Laptop aku rosak weh. Aku kena type balik semua EE"

"2012 nanti pun 3 kali Friday the 13th dalam setahun"

"Alain Delon"

"Saya memang suka makan chocolate tak suka makan sayur"

"Wat pancake jer...tapi...tak jadi2 at first"

"Best tak jalan tepi raja?"

"At least tak bagi muka blur kan??"
(during IUMC result)

"Adlan, aku tanya betul2, kau nak kahwin ke tak?"

"Adlan Wafi dah rindu kat aku"

"Kita jiran dengan dia. Abang kite selalu la main dengan dia"
(on the trip to MRSM TGB)

"Adlan Wafi!"

"Kalau dah berjaya, jangan lupa aku"

"Hai, lan! Bye, lan!"

"Ya Allah, Adlan. Malu weh aku."

"Aku ada donut Big Apple untuk kau"

"Kalau Adlan masukkan virus dalam laptop aku pon, aku bagi"

"Adlan balik tak minggu ni?"

"Kat Terendak dulu pun banyak hantu"

"Saya pon suka tengok Bleach sebab dia lain dari yang lain"

"Siapa tengok Fullmetal Alchemist?"

"I want to start eating potatoes; to get ready before going overseas"

"Wei, apasal tak balik lagi?"
(on the last day at KMB, you can guess that this person is a Business student - they all think alike)

"Haih..main surprise2 pulak dia ni"
(when she got the Secret Recipe cake)

"Adlan kat rumah selalu makan pizza la ni?"
(and I replied by saying I eat tempoyak and belacan)

"Byebye Guantanamo"
(last day for the Business students)

"Alamanda? We're on the same bus"
(the day when I go out for the last time with my classmates)

"Terkejut gila aku kalau password laptop dia nama aku"
(the attempt failed)

"Adlan, bawak Risk tau!"
(tapi dia tak main pon)

"Haha. Sangat lawak"
(on her response of why I called her phone on the last day of IB Exam)

"Bos!"
(dan akhirnya, dia panggil nama aku =) )

"Aku tak tau. Nak jumpa Puan Sharifah lepas IB nanti"
(on his response about his placement)

"ADLAN!"
(while waving his hands at me)

"Makan vitamin A"
(on his response of why he has light skin)

"I'm so happy for us"
(on the day I found out about Nottingham)

"Adlan, aku takut Maths"
(1 week before IB Exam 2009)

"Thanks sebab selalu bagi hadiah kat aku"
(padahal baru bagi satu je)

"Budak Jasin pon tengok Bleach!"

"Nanti kalau Adlan nak kahwin, boleh tempah nasi minyak kat..."

"Kau pernah makan dengan aku tak kat DS?"

"Budak bisnes je boleh ambik (hard disk)"
(when Business was the only paper left)

"Takutla dengan budak Kelas J. Asyik jumpa korang je"
(during the anonymous letter season)

"Sangat best!"
(her response on the day when Ms Iliani didn't teach in class and instead, open up a poll to vote for Bio option topics E or F; the day when I messaged half the class of M07B...haha)

"Shut up!!!"
(to express the feeling of surprise)

"Siapa fitry mahayuddin?"

"Thanks tau sebab jadi kawan aku"

"Aku tak tau kenapa, tapi aku selalu senyum waktu exam, joging pun senyum sorang2"

"Muka dia bujur...sama macam tuan dia"
(during mural painting)

"Adlan, nak muffin kau"

"Hot gile Adlan ni. Jelez kita"

"Adlan, kau nampak relax je"
(during the first week of IB exam)

"Is Manchester your first choice?"

"Fine, fine"
(and dia bayar hutang :P)

"Adlan tau tak mana2 hotel kat Shah Alam?"

"Aku suka raket tennis kau"
(and probably the reason why he always borrows it)

"Aku nak pinjam tie hijau kau esok, boleh?"
(during the interview season)

"Kau nak nasi lemak tak?"

"Adlan ni kalau bagi kerja mesti siap, perfectionist la"
(Wow! Betol! - this is a response from someone who has a sixth sense)

"Apa maksud Adlan?"

"Apa maksud Wafi?"

"Donut ni untuk orang2 special je"
(right before the IB exam)

"ifawnalda4!"

"Urm, depends on siapa la budak2 lelaki tu"
(on her response of whether she would go out alone will all her male classmates)

"If you're around JB, sms la"
(during CAS at Hospital Permai)

"Adlan!"
(waving to me from the top floor at the academic block along with 3 other friends, budak Langkawi)

"Dia tak reply langsung sms yang orang hantar"
(on the day of Nottingham results)

"Adlan Wafi yang comel"

"Where did you get that Harvard t-shirt?"

"Hebat siyal"

"Kadang2 kita boleh nampak orang tu banyak baca surat khabar bila baca essei Malay diorang"
(while we're on the flight back to Malaysia)

"Kau memang hensem"
(tengah bodek)

"Daging arnab liat sikat"
(when we talked about Sate Kajang)

"Saya tak pernah nampak awak tak senyum. Senyum mesti sampai kat telinga"

"Best tak?"
(she was asking about the Olympiad Chemistry camp which I've gone to during Semester 2 break)

"Adlan interview hari ni kan? Good luck!"

"Dah lama gile aku tak tengok Grey's Anatomy"

"Susah la kalau semua benda nak sama"
(on his response of why we like and hate different contestants of The Amazing Race)

"Oh, that's my father's name!"
(during the tea party, orientation week)

"Assalamualaikum, dah solat Asar?"

"Pergi terbang kat Adlan tu"
(It was the windiest day ever in KMB)

"Can I put your blog url in my references?"
(EE)

"Aku tak sebut nama dia, kau yang sebut"

"Smile always"

"Nanti kirim salam kat gagak hitam ye"
(CAS Permai)

"Jadi counsellor malam ni je ke?"
(during the night when I open up a temporary counselling service on YM)

"Adlan, nak kerepek"
(Kerepek Letop Terbaik!)

"Terima kasih banyak2 sebab banyak tolong aku selama ni...terutama exam"

"My results for this sem is bad"

"I will be your avid reader"

I was inspired to write this story on the day when I received a rejection letter (a change in course from Medicine to Biological Sciences is still a rejection :P) from the University of Edinburgh on 21st March 2009...


It was Saturday. The radiant rays of the sun showered the gardens surrounding the house of the Linzes. It was spring in Edinburgh and Adam Linz woke up to a glorious new day. Rejuvenated and lively, his mind was already occupied with a list of things to do - it is always good to have dreams and aspirations early in the morning; something to kickstart a whole new day. Suddenly, he realized he had something urgent to do and off he went to the hospital.

Lying on his bed, draped in white blanket, surrounded by his family members was Zac; nervously waiting for his surgery.

"Sorry for the late arrival," said Adam.

"That's ok, it's not time yet. Thanks for coming."

Adam was so glad he made it in time. He was so thankful that he did not miss Zac before the surgery. As Zac was taken into the operating room, Adam wished him all the best.

He really cared about Zac. They have known each other for years already and nothing could separate these two best friends. As Adam left the ward, glimpses of the past began emerging in his head.

It was PE (Physical Education) period and they were heading to the swimming pool. Mr Aaron was going to give swimming lessons to his class. Somehow, Zac was not fond of the idea. Adam sensed that his friend appeared uncomfortable and decided to confront him.

"Hey Zac, you're ok?"

Initially, Zac didn't want to confide his secret with Adam. He preferred to keep things to himself. He never intended to share his enigma with anyone.

Nevertheless, Zac's trust towards Adam was so strong; he believed that he can count on him. Without a moment's hesitation, he grabbed Adam's hand and put it on his chest right where the heart is.

Adam startled. He could feel like there seemed to be a hole - there was a hollow.

Pectus excavatum. The congenital deformity had been a part of Zac's life since he was born. It was not life-threatening. His health was unaffected regardless of the hollow in his chest. However, it would be undoubtedly difficult for someone to bear with the deformity. All of the questions that arose before were answered - Why Zac did not want to join the swimming club? Why Zac never liked the sea?

Zac's low self-esteem made him shut himself out from enjoying his life.

A tear trickled down Zac's cheek.

"Don't worry. I'll be with you all the way," Adam comforted.

But Zac could hardly utter a word. And Adam just wrapped his arms around his dear friend hoping that he would calm down.

They eventually joined their classmates in the pool and of course, the inevitable happened. People started teasing Zac and called him names: Hollow, Chest-hole and much more than you can imagine. It was unbearable. God knows what Zac was feeling at the moment but he was not paying any attention to the ruthless individuals.

Adam approached Zac but thankfully, he was still smiling; swimming in the crystal clear water without showing any signs of being irritated by the harsh words thrown at him. Adam was simply glad for his friend.

They say good news travels fast. Unfortunately, bad news travels faster. By next week, almost everyone in high school knew about Zac's deformity. Some were being understanding and gave him support but most were showing much negative attitude towards the innocent teenager.

But Zac could not take it anymore. People were torturing him emotionally. Adam's words of solace barely help in relieving his friend. Zac was in a state of turmoil. He was deeply frustrated and discontented. And all Adam could do was sincerely to be there for his friend.

"Hey Zac, calm down," said Adam.

"Sometimes, I wish you could just leave me alone. You don't even know how it feels like to have a hollow in your chest," said Zac while walking away from Adam. Zac was engulfed by rage and bitterness. Even so, he knew deep down inside he truly appreciates everything that Adam did for him. Who else could he depend on if it is not on his own dear friend?

Adam could not agree more. You just would not know how it feels like until you are in that person's shoes. Despite what Zac said, Adam remained loyal to his friend. Adam comprehended the fact that he needs to be more sensitive.

Several months passed and somehow, Zac suffered several episodes of breathing difficulty. He had also been complaining about having occasional neck and shoulder muscle pain. Zac knew that it was the time to make an appointment with a specialist.

The pulmonologist confirmed that Zac had a lower lung capacity than an average teenager of his age. Zac's eyes lit up. He would undergo a surgery and he would no longer have the deformity.

Several years after the surgery passed and Zac was enjoying his life as a normal young man. That was all he had ever wanted. To have a feeling of acceptance and belonging among his friends. Now, he could try everything without any sense of inferiority.

And Adam, as any friend would, was so happy for his best friend. And forever in his heart will he remember the very words which Zac told him right after the surgery went successfully.

"You know Adam, nothing that I feel today could ever be meaningful if it wasn't for you, my friends and family."

"Thinking about all the hindrances that I faced in the past, I knew they were not really important. Love is what has carried me up till this day. What is a hollow in my chest compared to the people that I care in life? And when I keep pondering these thoughts in my head it surely makes everything - the deformity, the obstructions that I've encountered and everything that made me feel inferior seem so insignificant...seem so small..."

And so I went jogging yesterday early in the morning and the whole time, I just could not take my mind off the interview that I had several days ago.

When I got back to my room, I got several messages on my phone:


Firstly, if there was such an award, the University of Nottingham would easily win the university with the Most Anticipated Interview as the period between the time when the interview invitations were released and the interview session was so long; it extended to almost two months. After several weeks of waiting, I've finally managed to successfully go to all my interviews (with the same attire successively =P).

However, there were several hindrances that I've encountered before that day arrives. It's more like a dilemma. Some of my friends were advising me of not going to this interview as some applicants are currently not holding any conditional offers. At that point, I was actually facing with one of the most difficult decisions that I have to make in life. Should I abandon my dream? Should I give opportunity to those who are still waiting? In the end, I just keep telling myself that there is a possibility for all of us to get the offers. I mean, it's not impossible.

And so I asked my friends to send this message to these people:


But after attending the interview, I doubt that getting the offer would be easy...for me that is...

24th March 09
The University of Nottingham, Chulan Tower
Nottingham

CAS - Creativity, Action, Service. When I first heard that I've to get 180 hours during my 2 year period of IB programme, I was definitely appalled by the number. 1 week's not even enough to reach that amount.

CAS was simply interesting. Most of the activities that I joined were quite new to me.


What better way to do CAS than to go back to your old school? I I even did CAS twice here - one with TGBians and one with M07J. It was quite invigorating, to reminisce the unforgettable moments when I was a member of the 05/06 batch. Very nostalgic.


I had fun and gone here twice too! Painting the rusty bars, cleaning the reptile house and came into close contact with a beautiful snake. Sort of a wild experience.


Now that my CAS file had been submitted, all I need to do now is to focus on the IB May 09 Exam. Even so, it's not as calm as it seems. It's IB KMB after all, what do you expect? The clock's ticking...

You don't really think I'm going to leave my blog without being updated for one whole month. After all, I am now free ~

I have this friend which I was close to in the early semesters in KMB, but nowadays, I realized that we rarely talked. Plus, whenever we meet, we only make eye contact. Yes, eye contact! I had to be the one to do the talking - the one to greet the other for numerous times continuously until I got tired...which was today. It's funny though. IB has not even ended yet and we're not talking to each other already. Don't get me wrong; we're not arguing or having internal conflicts. It's just that...I don't know; as time passes by, we simply stopped having conversations. Peculiar, I know. To the person being featured on my blog - just a simple greeting like giving salam is enough. We don't need to have long hours of chit chat. Simple short ones will do. And to all my friends - I really hope that this would not happen to anyone of you. It would be sad; really.

Speaking of speaking, I just found out about this:


Well, it might be old hat to you; nevertheless, how many of us are aware of the fact that we can actually hurt others through words?

Imam Ghazali pernah bertanya:

Apakah yang paling tajam di dunia ini?

Lidah manusia

Words can do so much damage to our lives. At times, there is this strange tendency for us to just blurt out whatever we have in our minds. Once we realized that we've said something wrong, that's when we wished we never said anything. And the guilt, it will devour you and make you feel bad for hours, days, weeks, months or even years.

And even that, don't you think that people like to talk bad stuff about others? It's almost like a culture in certain community (check out gossip)

Well, speak only when we have to and control what we want to say. Don't babble everything in your mind (unless you have a blog of course). Essentially, think before you throw...words that is...

I envy those who have their friends since they were in kindergarten and they're still together.

I envy those who have their friends since high school and they're flying off to the same country.

I envy those who have their friends going to the same university.

It's envy. Green with envy.

I found myself thinking about this most of the time. Throughout my life, it seems like I have to restart all over again. I made new friends and I found myself leaving them when I have to go to another place. When I moved to Penang, when I moved back to Shah Alam, when I go to MRSM TGB, when I enroll in KMB and it will happen once again when I fly to UK, insya-Allah.

It's undeniable that I actually have this crazy thought of persuading my friends who'll be flying off to other countries to actually apply to UK; especially when I found out they can still apply through UCAS Clearing. A much crazier idea was to actuate my friends who are applying to universities other than mine to opt for Clearing and what's more demented is that I even consider myself to enter Clearing just so that I have a chance to go the same university as my friends.

Okay, so I can't actually do any of these. I'm still rational and these plans are not even realistic. I guess I just have to let them go. And it's indubitably that I'm going to miss them...




And so my mum and I went to KLCC and we really didn't know where Traders Hotel was; so we walked around the Ground floor to find the information centre and as we approached the glass windows where you can see the lovely park, there it was - Traders Hotel; located directly across the park.

So, I had a stroll around the KLCC park with my mum and I kind of enjoyed it cause it's been a long time since we went for a walk. How cool is that - Going for a walk in the park with your mum before facing a crucial medical interview?

Traders Hotel is definitely a place of high class. No wonder most UK universities held their interviews here. And here are my questions:


And Liverpool actually had large proportion of their questions based on my personal statement.


Honestly, I was smiling everytime I hear bits of my PS being mentioned throughout interview. It's like - Yes! Finally! Something in the PS!

There were also some questions which I had to use my classmates as examples. Hehe.


For Question 9, initially, I said "No, there aren't any" but the interviewer repeated the question and I knew I had to think of something quick. All in all, I managed to answer their questions and the interview took less than 15 minutes. And I have to say it was OK.

This time, I smiled enough and my eye contact was more controlled. Another problem though - my throat was dry. I guess the temperature was too cold. Maybe I should drink some water during the interview.

I realized something throughout my interviews. At times, I couldn't really hear every word uttered by the interviewers. Then I remembered my Eng Oral; Ms Nora once said that "Adlan, if you're talking fast like that, no one can get what you're trying to say". Well, if the interviewers talked fast too and I couldn't hear what they're trying to say, so that must mean they can hear what I say. Right? Because they talk faster than me. Never mind that.

Here's a tip for fellow readers, don't ever say "Can you please repeat the question?". Surely, the interviewers would be smiling and they would kindly repeat the question. But in their minds - "What the heck?", "You expect me to repeat the question which took me 5 minutes to ask you?" and "Repeat? Seriously, who's interviewing who?".

Instead, say "I beg your pardon, can you please clarify the question?" or look for the word "clarify" in the thesaurus and use it in the above sentence.

Choosing UK was quite a challenge for me. It wasn't a personal decision. I'm actually separating myself from my friends that'll be going to other countries. But when I have to make the final choice for my university, it's going to be personal; definitely...

As I was walking along the route from Bukit Nanas to Dang Wangi to transfer from Monorail to RapidKL, I couldn't help noticing a very interesting sight which I'd gladly take a picture of it and put it on my blog. Unfortunately, I didn't bring along my digicam and my handphone is incapable of capturing photos with decent quality. (Really need to change my handphone once IB is over). Nonetheless, if you were there, you may want to do the same. It was a pathetic sight. Rubbish decorated the steps and escalators of the overhead bridge along the route. And the stench, I'll just leave that to your imagination. The question is - When will Malaysians change their mentality?


I wonder why John Mayer keeps waiting on the world to change. Perhaps, some things in this world are beyond our reach. We might just have to wait.

But still, we could not just sit and do nothing.


Well, you might've heard of the saying like the only constant thing in the world is change. Thus, why do we have to keep waiting? We could miss the boat. And once that happened, it could all be too late. Change while we can.

And so I changed my English EE from literature to language near the end of last year and I'm going to change my TOK essay topic during this weekend. But hey, I could be taking risks here. I certainly do not know the outcome of these changes but I really like the vibe at the moment.


Change. It's either good or bad, either we like it or we hate it. So, it's up to us to ensure it goes our way. Simply, just change...