Today marks the beginning of a new phase in my university life - the Clinical Phase!
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I have always considered The University of Nottingham as the university of 2nd chances.
For starters, the results from our 1st to half of 3rd year do not contribute to our medical degree, BMBS whereas in most other universities, the degree is based upon the results right from the very first assessment in the 1st year. So if I struggled in my first year (in which I did), I would still have another chance of improving the likelihood of me getting a first class degree if I scored better in the following year.
And my 3rd year contributes 60% to my first degree, BMedSci and if I do really well, that's going to help me in covering up my flaws in the first 2 years.
So you see, I have so many chances of redeeming myself but thus far, it hasn't really gone my way.
Truth be told and being me, of course I have been targeting a 1st for my BMedSci. The good news is my average is improving as I progress (my 1st year result is horrible but my 2nd year is much more commendable). But as a realistic optimist, I know that it's unlikely that I would obtain a first class honours for my first degree. This is not giving up. This is being realistic.
Giving someone a false hope is bad enough but to give yourself a false hope is even worse.
That's why I need to brace myself for the worst, that I will fail to get what I wanted and I am ready for that already.
The 1st revelation of my 3rd year results on the 13th of February implied that I may not get what I want and I'm okay with that. I no longer have to worry about my upcoming results despite the fact that there will be 2 more revelations (March and July)..cause I know that the probability of me getting high is low. I'm not going to put my hopes up high again (like what I did last year).
Allah has set me free from my worrisome :)
The reason why I wanted a 1st for my first degree was so that I would be more appealing to my future employers. Now that I know that's unlikely to happen, I'm just going to focus on my 2nd degree..the real one; BMBS - Bachelor of Medicine, Bachelor of Surgery.
And this degree starts now.
Here's to new beginnings and second chances!
Who says I'm giving up? I just found a new direction...