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And here comes another post, a personal one. Yeah, what do you expect? After all, this blog is called being me.

In my life, I have always told myself to be strong. Being a single child for the first 5 years probably has given an impact onto my personality. And being the only boy in the family (until Irfan came along) made me grow closer to my brothers.

I tend to become attached with people whom I've grown fond of and it is depressing when the time comes to say goodbye. You could probably tell from the sentimental intensity that was portrayed through the posts that I wrote during the KMB/Nottingham transition and even when I'm in the UK after several months. 

It's difficult really when I had known someone for a very long time and then I wished he could be with me so I can spent more time with him. But of course, this rarely happens.

I kept telling myself that when I become a doctor, I might become attached to my patients which I instantaneously hope that I won't. It's because of who I really am, someone who can really get attached to the people that I encountered in my life. That's why I once made a statement (not sure where) before I fly to the UK that sounds a bit like this:

"Don't think I would ever let you into my life that easy"

I was directing that statement to anyone that I would meet after my departure. Well, that didn't happen right, Adlan? And I'm glad it didn't. Cause now, I have lots of people who care and people I care. And that is sweet!

What I'll tell myself right now is to become firmer next year (3rd year). Regardless of which path they took, it's all destined by Allah and I have to accept it. Sure, I will be lying on my bed when I get upset but I need to get up promptly cause there are more things to be done. Even if I won't be meeting them that much, I just need to remember that in this world, everything is temporary and Allah is there for me, always~

This post is actually featured on my bloglist and I highly recommend that you read it especially if you're like me. Like the author, I too...am attached to emotions, to memories, to people. My attachment was probably heightened with my unexplained capability to reminisce past events in life. Alhamdulillah, I'm really grateful for this gift.

I need to remember that even if I won't be meeting them that much, I can always pray for them and if we were not destined to meet again in this world, then insyaAllah, we would meet in jannah. Isn't that the place we all are hoping to go to eternally?

Attachment. 

It is who I am. 

I will still become attached to some people. 

But the transcendent attachment would be towards none other than Allah...