move along

Last Monday, 25th of November 2013, I faced my little demons - Paediatrics Knowledge for the 2nd time. It's the only 4th year exam left for me to pass.

Kan best kalau 5th Year kena fokus kat module ni je. Tapi takpe, ada hikmahnya iA :)

The day began perfectly. I said goodbye to my mum, wore my pyjamas and left the house to my exam venue - Trent Buidling, which I have to say is one of the poshest place to do your exam. The weather's not too cold, the autumn leaves looked pretty and the birds were singing but they pooped several metres from where I was walking. That made me think, what would I do if they pooped onto me. I thought I'd just go to the toilet to wash my hair but another thought came up where I'd just go to the exam venue with the birds' poops so at least I can sabotage the people sitting within 2 metre radius from where I'd be sitting. That way, I have a higher chance of passing. That's when I realized what the Capitol the medical school has done to me and some of my friends. They turned our exams into the hunger games! Making us selfish and think about ourselves only. It's horrible, they make us fight amongst each other so we won't end up in the dreaded bottom 10% (tapi Paeds last year was more than 10%). After all, the people who ended up in the bottom are not usually saved from the red mark. Ok, enough conspiracies, let's get back to the main story.

So I did the exam in the computer room. I've chosen the perfect location - not facing a lot of people cause I can get distracted really easily by the invigilators' motions. No, seriously. I logged in but unfortunately, an error occurred. So the invigilator asked me to move to another computer. Bye-bye perfect spot. Logged in again and another error occured. Third time and still inaccessible. "You may begin" said the chief invigilator. Thanks lah invigilator! I tried 5 computers in total and then, he decided to call the Capitol. I meant the headquarters or whatever. I logged in using a guest username and my password was the name of a colour. Seriously, I don't like where this was going. So I started 9 minutes later than everyone else. You know what that means..when the time ends for these students, they are going to create such a ruckus. So I was determined to finish at the same time as they would in which I was successful, yeay! The 9 minutes later weren't of much use though. Didn't change my answers that much. Only used the time to make sure that I've answered everything. 

All in all, there were 9 X-rays (crazy! this is not a radiology exam), psych and derm questions (which I had to use my knowledge from the previous year) and MDD (it wasn't rheumatology though; it was the weird and the wonderful). At the end of the exam, I really hope that it would be something that I really know for sure that I'm going to pass, like a "feel good exam" but there has never been an exam of this type since the clinical phase begins. I was not in the mood after the exam but I tried to put on a happy face. Then, I decided that there's no use worrying too much about something in the past especially if the result is still unknown. So I decided to try and forget it and just focus on my Finals. I sort of came up with a new campaign and hashtag (like I always do since I failed in January earlier this year):

FEBRUARY FINALS!

#FebFinals

Just humour me, okay. My friend told me that I needed a distraction. What better way than to focus on the Finals. I'm quite nervous to be honest. Because I have a lot of catching up to do. I'd say that I'm 40% ready for the Finals. But I'm not giving up because I still have time - I call this my 10 week challenge!

8 weeks shown in the photo for my final attachment in Surgery and 2 weeks of holiday in December which I determined to utilise it to catch up with my peers. It's the 10 week challenge!

The countdown to Finals starts now...