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Visa Guidelines is back

Alhamdulillah, I got married to a lovely lady by the name of Sarah and we're enjoying our new phase in life since that momentous day.

And yeah, I graduated from the University of Nottingham and thus, escaping from the evil clutches of my medical school. woot2! probably needs a post on this as well but yeah, maybe later.

at the bottom of this blog, there is an article on visa guidelines for medical students graduated from UK medical schools under MARA scholarship who are planning to work as an FY1 doctor in the UK.

After all, it was my visa guidelines which i made 5 years ago that helped me to get to know a lot of people and for some, have now become my close friends. And it helped a lot of other people as well. So I hope that this guideline would ease your efforts a bit. Visa application is always confusing.

Scroll down to the bottom for the guideline

Sunday, April 01, 2012

fix you

Ok, this post is meant to clarify my tweets since the past few days.

If you looked at this post, you'd know that I was ready to get whatever result for my Honours Year Project...well, I was. Of course, in my mind, the mark that I imagined would be somewhere within the average range. But when I looked into the portal, I was surprised to see that it was so low. Yeah, I was devastated at that time. I've already decided to focus on my BMBS (the 2nd and the main degree) but that low mark made me feel so hopeless. Using the previous year's mark distribution as a guidance, that means, I'm in the bottom 10% of the batch. This is the first time I'm in the bottom 10%. If I'm in a reality show, I'm inches away from elimination.

So yeah, I tweeted some of my expressions hoping to attract my friends' attention. Yeap, when I tweet, I'm actually letting my friends know that I need some morale boosting. Bukan untuk menarik perhatian umum dan menjadi popular! 

On the same day, Dr Har and Dr Hafidzah came to Nottingham to deliver some motivational talks. What are the odds? The 2nd revelation of my exam results happened on the same day as this event -_-" Dah la aku kena jadi emcee.

It was motivational really when Dr Har said that "orang beriman kalau mendapat kesukaran, dia tahu Allah sedang menguji dia". I did feel much better after the talk. Allah sent me Dr Har on the same night I found out about my result.

Tau tak...bila saya dapat homebase Microbiology and Infectious Diseases, saya bagitau kat kawan-kawan (ie Izzul Faiz) yang the only aims for me were to get my project published and to get 1st class. I said to him that, "Yelah, dah tak suka. Fokus untuk dapat result elok je la and publish". Cause I know I wouldn't enjoy doing my project. This conversation took place during summer last year.

My aims were:
- to get published
- to get 1st class

Well, it's obvious I didn't get it published. The project was a microbiological fiasco. And 1st class? *coughs* waaaaayyyyy far from that mark.

Sedih betul cerita ni. Macam drama Melayu di mana watak utama dia kena badi and then semua orang keliling dia jadi lumpuh, kena langgar kereta, syarikat muflis, mak tiri buli etc.

Tu lah dia, kegagalan Adlan Wafi. Oh, saya tak fail ye. Lagipun, mana boleh fail. Kalau fail apa jadi? Orang tu kena repeat projek untuk 8 bulan lagi? Kesian orang tu.

So anyway, I felt better on Friday...until I opened up the feedback envelope which I received from Fadh who collected in on my behalf since my hospital is like so far away.

I looked at my disseration mark...not bad. I was happy to see the comment from Dr Shanika Crusz. She's so supportive and understanding. My viva mark was predictable. I didn't really performed. And my supervisor's mark?


She decided to give me the lowest mark I have ever obtained in the whole 3 years of my medical course. I felt like my heart was stabbed with a pipette. I know she was being professional but I didn't really think that my performance was really that bad. Upon looking at the feedback, there were only 2 sentences written negatively about me. I was so baffled! I kept looking at the feedback every now and then to check if there was an error...she might have chosen the mark by mistake, it might have been incorrectly entered into the system, whatever the possible mistakes could be. I was in ultimate denial. Cause what I felt whilst meeting her didn't correlate to this result.

I know, I could email her asking for clarification but no, I don't want to be affiliated with her in any ways after this. I emailed a friend of mine who had her as a supervisor as well and I'll wait for his response to see if his mark was as bad as mine.

It's so heartbreaking really. I don't even think I can face her anymore (not that I see her nowadays). In my mind, she's like Darth Vader or Aizen Taichou. Sorry, I could not think of any female characters who became evil and hurt those who believed in them at the moment.

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So the main reason why I'm all so depressed is because I was let down by the person whom gave me hopes when all I see in the lab was torture. I tweeted her name over and over again when I did my project cause she was so motherly..she was one of the reasons why I still have the spirit to go to the lab early in the morning and even to make me withstand the workload even though it was already 9 pm. She was my she's someone whom I wish I could forget.

On the bright side, Fikri got me a cake trying to cheer me up =)

My hopes were crushed by the very person whom gave them to me in the first place. It's the feeling that I wish none of you would ever have to experience cause it's just so painful. I'm torn asunder...

14 reviews:

  1. Lighten up AWR! Even the best fall down sometimes ;)

  2. i'm alright, thanks! cuma it's like ur tutor wrote a letter of disapproval for ur application. rasa kecewa la. at least, i still have my lovely tutor

  3. erm, tak terkata...

    macam "you know me" said:

    "... Even the best fall down sometimes..."

    InsyaAllah, MBBS nanti 1st class...

  4. haha...thanks!

    post ni sebenarnye nak highlight kekecewaan bila harapan kita dimusnahkan oleh orang yang telah beri kita motivasi.

    ironi dlm kehidupan~

  5. erm, dan itu sangat mengecewakan...


  6. kawan saye kata:

    Adlan mesti boleh survive punye...

    (dia tgb dulu)

  7. cakap kat die...

    terima kasih kerana percayakan saya!!! huhu

  8. Salam.
    My ustaz said:

    "Jangan terlalu menyukai seseorang, kerana mungkin satu hari nanti kita mungkin akan membencinya selama-lamanya. Jangan terlalu membenci seseorang kerana mungkin satu hari ada kebaikan pada dia yang membuatkan kita suka padanya."

    I think this is a hadith. I'm not sure, but at least it hold some truth.

  9. Wassalam wbt,

    yeap, i heard of it before. the hadith sounds like this

    "Love the one whom you love to a certain degree (moderately), perhaps one day he will be someone for whom you have hatred, and hate the one for whom you have hatred to a certain degree (moderately), perhaps one day he will be one whom you love"

    HR At-Tirmidzi

    wallahualam and thanks for sharing!

  10. This is quite cliche.. but there's always a silver lining behind every cloud.. :)

  11. hehe, it's a good advice really ;)

    thanks for leaving a comment during these stressful times at kmb!

    April is like the month to prep everything up before the final showdown in May. I know that even teachers worked hard to give final tips and advice to their students =)

  12. Jangan risau, ALLAH ada untuk Adlan Wafi :) ujian itu tandanya ALLAH sayang kamu :)

  13. thanks for the reminder! kadang2 diri ini mudah alpa

  14. :) it's ok. kita sebagai seorang muslim mesti saling mengingati :)